I've been away for quite some time, bare with me while I come up with some pathetic excuse.
I've got to say, this has got to be the best holidays I've ever had. Seemingly because I've come to terms with a lot of things about myself. I wish I could say it was because I learned the art of self loving, but realistically, I was just blessed with the company of some awesome people. Namely, one particular person who was able to accept me regardless of what state I was in, and reassure me no matter what, I am beyond special. As Watsky says, "I don't care where you've been, how many miles, I still love you."
You give me that kind of something, want it all the time need it everyday.
So instead of boring you with my thoughts and babbles, why not show you?
I've begun to immerse myself a lot more with nature, embracing the free good things in life and learning to understand things a bit more. I've come to learn that I thoroughly enjoy spending time out and about, it gives me a sense of freedom, and even though it's momentary, my problems and worries aren't that big of a deal compared to the rest of the world. It's soothing, friendly, and inviting.
I'll make sure to come back. I consistently tell myself how much I miss writing on here, but my laziness fails to comply. I really want to start v-logging. Quite excited that I'm starting my make-up course soon. It should be interesting to see how it goes.
Well good night fellow buttercups, sleep well. I haven't been getting good sleeps in a while. I just can't figure out why... maybe it's time to clean my room, again.
Labels: fun, happiness, holiday, life, memories, surprises, update
How to be brave? How can I love when I'm afraid to fall.
July 2011 - May 2013,
for almost two years, and for a thousand more... I will remember.
I have died everyday waiting for you, and you came. You taught me love, friendship, trust, but most important of all, you showed me what it felt like to be loved, and to love with all my heart.
One step closer, strangers, friends, lovers, distant, memories, history.
Sudden, but understandable. We saw, we conquered love, we part, we carry on. I'm just so grateful for what we had, for what we shared, and for having you be a part of my life journey.
Now that this chapter ends, I alone, will start another.
And we will live happy ever after as I always remind myself. I believe we were all born to find true happiness, and whether or not my happiness was truly with you, I am confident enough to say that at some point, I felt as though happiness could never be taken away from me when I was with you.
With every plot we had our fair share of arguments and disasters. But all that taught me just how insane people can be when they are madly in love with one another. I hated you, I loved you.
And this ends here, if you read this, you know I'll support you with all your life decisions, and I hope one day when we bump on the streets, days, months, years from now, you won't forget what we had, and won't be afraid to greet me.
I'm a cluster of emotions, it's hard to come across someone who understands and accepts me so well. I'm thankful.
I hope life treats you well, my friend.
Labels: breakup, memories, relationship
